Cousin Exmo wrote:
From a pre-dinner conversation with DW:
She: I don't see why you had to resign. You could have remained a member and still had your doubts about JS, etc.
Me: I didn't want to be counted.
She: Why did that matter?
Me: After I quit believing, I couldn't sing a hymn, say amen to a prayer, or listen to a talk or testimony about JS and the "restoration." Testimony meetings were the hardest thing.
I had that feeling the 1st month after I went to anti Morg sites. I would have normally sent my resignation letter in the next day but I had made a promise a couple months before to help with my friend's reception...2 months after he was sealed since he lives in Idaho now.
I went to the church on the Sunday after the reception as the last day of church there just in case he showed up to say goodbye which he didn't btw. Oddly enough, an hour before service, I was ordered to give the opening prayer for sac meeting which pissed me off considering the state I was in. I had never felt so dirty in my life after saying that prayer. God forbid, they assign someone that duty a week in advance but no...morgbots want EVERYTHING done the hard way.