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I wasn't sure if I would post this here, but what the hell I'm drunk enough. My brother died two weeks ago. His health was already very poor, but it was so sudden. It sucked, I was with him when he died, and I was in charge of his living will. I had the "honor" of telling my mother that my brother was dying and we needed to stop treatment to honor his wishes. (Thank god for cell phones or would have been completely alone that morning.) And then telling the staff shut it off. It still sucks.

Anyways I've mostly been drinking wine, but I've had some glenlivet (12 year) as well, as dogma recommended, sans rockstar. And it's good stuff. It's certainly worthy of my brothers memory.

I'm doing better now, this is definitely one situation were a big family helps. Anyways I'm not drunk enough yet time to drink a bit more. (obviously since I still make sense I think)

I'm so sorry for your loss, no thanks. I take it you were pretty close to your brother?

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The apple cannot be stuck back on the Tree of Knowledge; once we begin to see, we are doomed and challenged to seek the strength to see more, not less. ~ Arthur Miller

Sorry for your loss, nt.

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He never said it would be worth it; He only said it would be easy.

I'm very sorry, no thanks.

Thanks for your thoughts, I was pretty close as were my daughters. He struggled a lot in his life, and finally was overwhelmed by a massive infection.

Now that I'm not drunk, I feel better. The pain is fading, part of me wonders if he isn't better off now. He was wheelchair bound for years, and was increasingly unhappy.

I'm very sorry to hear of this, No Thanks. I hope for much strength to you and your family as you work through the grief and the loss.

Here's sending whatever comfort I can.

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"It is inaccurate to say that I hate everything. I am strongly in favor of common sense, common honesty, and common decency. This makes me forever ineligible for public office."

- H. L. Mencken

Hope you are able to find some peace during this difficult time. So sorry.

I'm so sorry. I wish I could say or do more. It just sucks.

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Sometimes I make my kids wear sombreros and scuba fins around the house. Not because there is any reason. I just want to teach them obedience.--Darth J

Take care of yourself No Thanks...sending love and condolences.

Thanks everyone for your kind thoughts and well wishes. It helps. Things are getting back to normal. It's still weird though, getting used to the idea that he's dead.

Thoughts to you, it hurts. Easy on the scotch k?

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"I predict future happiness for Americans if they can prevent the government from wasting the labors of the people under the pretense of taking care of them."-Thomas Jefferson

Thanks for you well wishes. I was feeling a little sick on Saturday morning afterwards, so it might be a few weeks before I drink anything.

Thanks for the caution, I do try to be careful, there are cases of addictive behavior in my family and I don't want to go there.

This is the hardest part of enduring the loss, in my experience. You still think, Oh I need to call so-and-so, and then you realize you can't. Or you think you see them out of the corner of your eye. Or dream about them. Especially with someone you loved deeply or cared about, it's just a long difficult process to adjust to their absence.

Sorry to hear of your loss.

I can't imagine being in that position. I know that it's not helpful, but I can't help but think that you honored your brother's wishes - as much as that sucks to know. I have watched people in pain, as their bodies are kept alive for weeks or months and it's awful. Good thoughts sent your way.

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