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I wish I didn't care but I'm going nuts inside.

I'm going to church to show that I can be supportive of these rites of passage and because he wants me to come. But I just feel absolutely sick about all these endless things that entrap my children deeper. We've had talks and I don't think he (oldest son) really believes it all that much, but all the relatives are going and we're having a family dinner afterwards. Sigh.

I know it's all nonsense so why do I care? I guess usually if something feels wrong it usually is, so I'm listening to my gut. But I have to go against my instincts and be the better woman. My husband knows I'm screaming inside and is being as sweet as he can.

I just hate this shit.

I'm so sorry. I continue to have to deal with these rites of passage too. All 3 of my children's baptisms have happened without my blessing, but apparently my wishes don't matter. The stone must roll forth, even if it rolls right over the disbelieving mother.

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What other people think about me is none of my business.

I survived it, but I still feel like crying. I don't know why this stuff fucks me up so much. Sigh.

Hugs from a momma who loves and suffers for her children (((hugs))).
He'll be ok. I'm pretty sure he'll think himself back out by the age of 17. Mine did without much help from me at all.

I know. It was also the primary presentation so at least I got two things out of the way at once. I just need to bawl for a while.

Just be there for your little fella, and if he feels like rejoicing, rejoice with him. If it's something that brings him joy, let it be, for now. Wait until he's old enough to comprehend any real discussion with him, and even then, if he chooses to stay, and is happy there, be happy for him. At some point it will be his life, and you won't want to miss out on his joy, his children, or his activities. It doesn't have to be a deal breaker.

I'm right there with you! I have a son being ordained in a month or two. I talked to him in detail about the history of the priesthood, he knows that I don't believe in it and even sees that it probably isn't true, but grandparents are constantly pushing their "testimonies." I know he doesn't want to dissappoint them and I told him that I would support him if he decided to do it, so I think he is taking the path of least resistance. It is frustrating though. Hang in there.

And chances are, week after week of abjectly boring youth activities, your son will turn to drugs for comic relief when he's a little older.
My dh received an email from one of the young men leaders today, congratulating everyone on Wednesday night's rousing lesson on genealogy, and asking them to show up this week for the lesson on baptisms for the dead.

Awwww, sorry to hear that! What a hard thing to go watch. You are a great Mom, and he'll come around! If nothing else, he'll always know how much you love him for doing something that is super hard for you!

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